FRIDAY MAY 21,2010

Did you say that it is the LAST friday of the school year???

ok--- now we can smile...

now- we will celebrate! :D

WOW! We have almost made
it through the 2009-2010
school year.
most of the work is over- yes... but there are a few
things left on our plate.
So push through this weekend boys.
we can do it!

Summer time is calling our name!
fun for all-
and
all for fun!
yippee!

more soon! :D
~angie

Tuesday May 18, 2010

another recital done...
Spring 2010

A few of my girls from the recital!
left to right
Nihdi, Lizzi, Cameron, Jordan, Anousch
i love them so much!

The recital went great.
I had a few chicken out-like Kasey... aahhhhggg!!!!!!!!
she has practiced since JANUARY!!! Canon in D...
she backed out last minute.
i was not very happy...
then!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Susan Lei-a student in my subdivision started flipping out about recital.
She told her mom her song was TOO EASY!
well yes........
it was too easy.
She wouldn't choose a song on her own. I had to give her something to play
LAST minute.
ohh my gosh!

She wanted to come over after school to change songs?!!!???
she didn't show up at 4.
I called the mom-(huge language barrier!) and she said Susan would not come.
omg!
whatever at this point.
it didn't matter to me if she played or not.
then...
i am walking out the door at 6:25.... and lo' and behold who is in the driveway?!?
Susan and her dad...
say what?
the performance is in 30 mins....
why are you HERE!???????
jeez...
she

The rest of the kids did great!
Draven blew me away with River Flows. He is quite good once he puts his mind to it.
Connor did a great job too. Very expressive and flawless.

I am proud of all of them! Many of them pushed through and did a great job on their piece.
It is a good experience for them either way.

Now....to move on.
The last day of school is a coming!

I have lots to do to show appreciation to the teachers and the students.
Picture packs to make, frames to finish and decorate.
lots to be busy with.
I am just thankful that for the most part real lessons are over.
(even though I have outstanding payments due... which I must collect soon!>!>!>!)

I also withdrew from AIO for this session too. That is a another post all together!

so-
me...
and finding time to do things I LOVE! LOVE! LOVE!!!!!

one of those things is hayden...
and

Teyler.... :D

and
Mr. Avery... who is losing teeth left and right these days...
the tooth fairy had to print off a Gift Card for him....
she was short on cash-ola! :D
more soon.
~angie

Monday May 17, 2010

Today is the day...
Piano RECITAL!
spring...
2010

hayden and christopher think that is great too!

here is where i will be this evening...
instead of making pasta night-
i will be listening to 34 students play their songs that we have been working
on a few weeks now.
It will be fun.
I will be glad to say we are done...
the school year has been hectic!
Some of the hectic-ness has been my fault that is true.
but I will be turning over a new leaf this summer.
Making a new plan!
Learning to stand up for myself and run my business
the way it needs to run successfully.
I can do it!

Thanks-avery!
you think so too?
Cheer me on!
please...
:D

We had a good weekend.
Tre' helped me dig out of the zillions of loads of laundry.
Right now there are only about 6 loads up there to work through.
We did accomplish something.
PLUS!
We assembled, addressed and stuffed Becky's invitations. Put together the fans and we
had another shower with the Fowl's side of the family.
It was nice.
NEXT weekend will be busy for sure.
Her bridal luncheon and the couple shower too.
So- a busy day!

The kids are geared up for the last 6 and 1/2 days for sure.
We are ready to break!
ready to sleep.
rest.
swim...
and make those changes.
It has to happen!
no other option left in the bag!
i am sure there will be details coming soon!
~angie

FRIDAY May 14, 2010

the sky the day daddy went to heaven...
That cold january morning 2009...
the clouds stopped me as i pulled out of the
my street.

stop!!look!! and breath...

daddy is out of pain and in heaven...

as I drove to meet everybody at Momma's--
on chambers rd- 4 little blue birds flew in front of the van.
literally making me tap my breaks to avoid them crashing into me...

I have full assurance beyond a shadow of a doubtdaddy is out of pain and in heaven...

in those 'God winks'-
I find such comfort knowing that the Lord sends
special moments for me take in.
That morning he crafted the painting in the sky with white puffy clouds...
and I was at peace for Daddy.

I love you so much Daddy.
i miss you!
i miss the security that you gave me- and i miss you being with momma.
i just
miss
you!

i am not sure what is going on with me at the moment.
I just miss how everything should be...
Sherrie speaking to us...
Momma not sad about Daddy and Sherrie...
Everything stems from Daddy being gone.
i am very weary!
ABOUT
all
OF
it!
I am really stressed about AIO classes.
I am doubting I will squeak by in this class.
There was just SO much to overcome with my tech issues.
Plus- the 2nd spring session began yesterday...
i have no way to pay for the balance due-
so...
i will have to withdraw for this session...
yet again delaying my graduation date even further...

I have lots to figure out the next few weeks. :/

i am just stressed beyond belief at the moment though...
i have parents who owe for this months lessons and they haven't paid...
living pay check to pay check truly sucks.
and
THAT
my friend is going to change!
one day at a time!

Avery and Mason had field day today-
Avery (of course) ended up with a headache and we left early.
it is pretty humid today for real!

I will be with becky tonight putting together and addressing wedding invites.
I will be back soon...
weekend is here thankfully-
let us just hope some parents come bearing payment today! :?
please Lord-
angie

Thursday/Friday May 12th &early 13th... 2010

i can't even begin to express how glad i am that
the end of this week is here.
one human should not have to endure the stress i have
been under the past few weeks.

My mission at this moment is waiting on the cake to cook for
Tre' to take to work tomorrow.
Kristi's birthday--- and tre' requested that i bake my famous
awesome chocolate cake!
ohh- the icing on that thing is yumm-o-liscious!!

after the day I have had i could eat the entire bowl of
icing...
like snoopy here.
licking his nose...
well...
me? and the bowl of icing?
slurp-slurp-slurp!

to help me forget about the goober who tried to hack into my
accounts today...
I decided to search for fun pictures and post them.
no order-everything random...
I love to see avery smile and laugh...
it is a rare occasion ya' know...

another of avery smiln'... and sketched!
cutie!!!

and the sweet eyes and freckles...
my little baby...
:[

what motely crew this is!
yippe ti yi yo!
Maybe they can help track down the jerk...
he really messed with my day
and i am not happy with whoever it is!

Avery reminds me to smile here...
even if i failed my DIM class with AIO.
I was doomed with all of the tech issues i had.
if I had known that...
ohh-i would have dropped the stress weeks ago.
i really thought my instructor was going to see i did all i could.

I did...
I worked hours on end..
but-
out of time...out of chances.
a big fat F! after all of that work.
to fail...?
i am down that is for certain!

despite failing-
i did learn TONS on Lightroom2.
I am taking a step back for sure.
Today started session 2 spring.
I can't take a class because my aid is out for the next 3 months.
so-
it is a blessing in disguise actually.
i could jam on this next class now that I have so much work in lr2 under my belt...
but-
i just can't do a side loan for the cash-
and i certainly don't have 1,200 to foot the bill.
so... hopefully in my spare time i will get some work done around this house.
jeez man o'man!
laundry and the whole house are on my last nerve!!!
off to sleep...
the cake is done...icing tastes wonderful too...
more tomorrow..
angie

Tuesday May 11, 2010 part 2

Spring recital is coming... just days away.
So- yes... the craziness of students is in full swing.
Ohh- how I promise I will be making some MAJOR changes to my
structure and set up for next season.
I can't and won't go through another school year like this again.
Stress is not even a strong enough word to describe it all...

We are certainly on the down hill slide at this point.
10 and 1/2 days...
but---
i have to get through my final..
and
figure out financing for my next session..
(ohh jeez!!!!!!!!!)
so...
on i must go to my list and my work load.

aaaa-choo!
I just like this picture...
it makes me laugh-
and i certainly need a few laughs about now...
:]
angie

Tuesday May 11, 2010

Something wacky is going on with blogspot...
So I decided to post some wacky pics of 2 of the wackiest kids i know..
Mason and Avery!
I have more pictures of the 2 of these monkeys being silly and laughing through the years.
So sweet!
So funny....
constantly a barrel of laughs and goofiness...

Hopefully thing will clear up on this crazy website and I will post more later...
right now it is annoying- so I will move on to more AIO finals...
yippee... :/
angie

Monday May 10, 2010

It is Monday.
I am thankful that we are clipping along and moving through May.
I am just ready for the school year to be on the end side of the ladder...
that is all...
I am overwhelmed...
I am digging myself out of a hole in SO many areas that I am literally about to break...

I just want sleep.
I just want nothing to do...
No laundry... No homework...
NO dishes!
nothing!

Just a few days- is all I am asking for... :*(

And yes...
yesterday was Mother's Day.
Not a good mother's day really... for many reasons.
of course the tension is still there with the distance in our family. I can't fix it...
I certainly can't make people change if they are not willing to be FORGIVING people...
So....
I have to MOVE on!
We enjoyed lunch with Momma at Italian Oven.
We went to her house to play outside, fish and have ice cream.
It was nice.
It was not nice having to leave...
It was not nice knowing that my baby sister will not speak to us...
will not call us...
and over all wants NOTHING to do with us...
:/ :/
but... ? what can I DO?!?!
Turn it over to the Lord...
yes...

Then- tre' and the boys gave the me the "standard" gift...
Bath and Body Works..
the scent that tre' picked out... I already have several of.
So-
basically i have to take BACK my Mother's Day gift...
that was just a obligation gift any way...
He didn't even have the boys buy a card for ME!!!!!!!!!!!!
isn't it about ME being THEIR MOMMA?!?!?

i am just often hurt by his lack of sensitivity...
quite often...
most daily actually!
but...
i have to move on from that too.

The next 3 days are going to be a challenge...
i will be back at some point...
~angie

Friday May 7, 2010

We started off the week in pain and agony... wishing it was already friday...

A few grumpy moments and fits in between---
we somehow breezed through monday and wednesday appeared!

THEN! Thursday came along and we cheered and knew there was hope for the weekend to come!

Let's smile and hug and jump for joy!
school is almost out- the days are ticking by...
Summer fun will be next on our agenda!

We can make it!
I know we can...

Soon- Teyler... This will you on the deck enjoying the summer sun and warm breezes...
Ahhhh.... :D
can't wait!

I think when I am stressed behind my ability to function I turn to my pic stash to help me push on. It really only makes sad in the long run I suppose...
because I see how fast my babies are now growing up and I can't go back and/or I can't STOP it from happening.
So- either way I have to dig in and get everything done some how ..... some way!

Hopefully we will have a great weekend...
I will try-
It is Mother's Day ya know???

Happy fRiDAy!!!
yippeee!!!

Thursday May 6, 2010

Take on the day-
It is Thursday after all...
We can make it!
It is almost Friday---
PLUS
We are that final MAY countdown...
School will be out soon!
If you need a little more motivation keep reading...

See???
Keith--- He is ready for Thursday!
:D

We are ready too!
Face the day!
Kick aside the doubt and pressure.
I am going to try that is for sure!

Before you know it-
We will be sitting pretty tonight knowing that we made it through the day and accomplished out goals!

~gratefully-thankful for life and love...

On this NATIONAL DAY OF PRAYER-
I am praying...
for so many things.
My kids, my husband,my family, friends,my church and pastors, and my country and our leaders. We have to run to the Lord-somehow and some way we have to make the change and look at our world in a heavenly perspective and see that God has blessed us beyond measure.
We take it for granted.
Thank you Lord for ALL of the blessings you have given the USA!
I pray that our leaders will be open to your direction.

"If my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land."
2 Chronicles 7:14

May 5, 2010

Flowers---
pretty purple and yellow flowers...
Reminding me to breathe- and remember to be still and
see what gifts God has given for today.

I am certainly feeling overwhelmed, stressed and weighted down at the moment.
Too much to even make notation of. I am just unhappy with myself- how I look, how I feel, how my days look... Yes- they could be worse! Full of sickness and such, but I feel like I am just slipping away minute by minute.
When I see the bridal shower pictures and the ones that I am in-
ohh my!
It makes my stomach church.
My face is SO fat.
My belly is SO huge! I look like I have been pumped up and I am about to burst!
I feel that way too.
Yes..
I have lost 20 lbs. since last June...
yes- that is great.
but I still feel like poo!
I look awful...
I am SO stressed about being in Becky's wedding-
I just can't stand the thought of people staring at me as I walk down the isle...
ALL of the pictures!
ohh- this is just a nightmare.
The wedding is less than 60 days away.
I can't make 50 lbs. melt away that fast!
That would be a pound a day...
:D
fat chance?!?!
oops- bad pun there...

My thoughts are random- and my mood is unpredictable the past 2 weeks.
AIO is certainly 90% of that...
well...
somewhere in the % is Avery and his headache issues, cleaning and organizing the house,
AND money stress, teaching stress-sherrie and her issues and the stress surrounding that!-
Teyler will be a SENIOR....
:( :[ :*(
very overwhelmed! :/
Hopefully since tomorrow is Thursday-
I will feel better-
have a different outlook-
and see things in a new perspective.
One- that doesn't see ME as a hippo and tub o' lard causing disgust and nausea to everyone around me. 'Cuz I certainly cause it for myself.
uhhg-
~angie

MONDAY May 3, 2010

This past week was crazy--- but I suppose they are all crazy, right?
Mr. Davis had his surgery on Wednesday and he went home on Friday.
The last I heard he was having some pain and nausea, but all of that was expected.
We are praying that he recovers quickly and that the test results come back with good news.
The kids love him so! Hayden got in the car Friday and said, "I miss Ed!" :/
Get well Mr. Davis!

The week leading up to Becky's church shower was busy. I had sent out invitations, but I had not really heard back from many at all. I never even heard from the other bridesmaids... except Heather and Carrie... :?
We had it at Delee's- which is AMAZING! It was nice. Becky received quite a few gifts and we all had a great time chit- chattin' and eating dip and petit fours.

I am under the gun on so many things right now that I am about to crumble... :/
I am praying for some answers and divine intervention at the moment.
I am just having faith-

More to come soon.
~angie :D