Monday May 10, 2010

It is Monday.
I am thankful that we are clipping along and moving through May.
I am just ready for the school year to be on the end side of the ladder...
that is all...
I am overwhelmed...
I am digging myself out of a hole in SO many areas that I am literally about to break...

I just want sleep.
I just want nothing to do...
No laundry... No homework...
NO dishes!
nothing!

Just a few days- is all I am asking for... :*(

And yes...
yesterday was Mother's Day.
Not a good mother's day really... for many reasons.
of course the tension is still there with the distance in our family. I can't fix it...
I certainly can't make people change if they are not willing to be FORGIVING people...
So....
I have to MOVE on!
We enjoyed lunch with Momma at Italian Oven.
We went to her house to play outside, fish and have ice cream.
It was nice.
It was not nice having to leave...
It was not nice knowing that my baby sister will not speak to us...
will not call us...
and over all wants NOTHING to do with us...
:/ :/
but... ? what can I DO?!?!
Turn it over to the Lord...
yes...

Then- tre' and the boys gave the me the "standard" gift...
Bath and Body Works..
the scent that tre' picked out... I already have several of.
So-
basically i have to take BACK my Mother's Day gift...
that was just a obligation gift any way...
He didn't even have the boys buy a card for ME!!!!!!!!!!!!
isn't it about ME being THEIR MOMMA?!?!?

i am just often hurt by his lack of sensitivity...
quite often...
most daily actually!
but...
i have to move on from that too.

The next 3 days are going to be a challenge...
i will be back at some point...
~angie